WTF. Okay, so I don't really trust Matt's driving, so I turned down Kiyomi's offer to go to SF today. No big deal. I had plans with Raye and David already anyways. My sister and Doug and Paul were supposed to be heading to Reno for Paul's birthday, and no one bothered to invite me, so I figured I'd respect thier not wanting me tagging along. No big deal there either, I guess. Minus being slightly hurt. So Raye and David and I were supposed to be going to the mall and the bookstore this afternoon, and I'd resigned myself to being third wheel for the evening, because fuck, I haven't seen Raye in too long, and I like hanging out with them. So then my sister calls me. Seems they've decided not to go to Reno. Okay.... this is the first time in my life I've ever had people offer to take me to San Francisco twice in one day. It's a fucking sign or something. Anyhow, I definately trust my Doug and Paul's driving, and I really wanted to celebrate Paul's birthday with them anyways, because he just does so very much for me and I'm always at a loss to express just how grateful I am. He's the best, he really is. Anyhow, I figure David still misses Raye after not seeing her for two weeks, so they won't mind the extra time alone. Besides, I'm still going to spend the night at her house, and I get to go to the Borders in SF and pick up my RP books! Done deal, right? ...Why do I still feel bad? Everyone's spending time with thier respective SOs, I don't have to play third wheel, and I can help celebrate Paul's birhday AND get my RP books. I already worked on my english essays all afternoon, so I'm nearly done. I have all day Sunday to finish them anyhow...

Blah. I should just shut up and go.

.alieu 
...coffee, republic, and cakes <3 2:24:00 PM