I'm such a fucking idiot. I'm going back in the same damn circle that I told myself I wouldn't do again. Everyone else actually learns from their past mistakes, so why the hell can't I?
Err... well, anyways.
The LAN was pretty cool, and I had a lot of fun. There were some dry stretches where I got ungodly bored, but I just doodled in Kaitlen's sketchbook. It was a lot more laid back, which was nice, and the only thing that would have made it better was if I could've gotten a massage. My back hurts again. Meh, what am I saying? My back ALWAYS hurts. I need a personal massuese or something. XD
I was kinda bummed afterwards because Brian suggested going to the movies, and I really wanted to go, but when Dave dropped me off at home my parents said it was already too late. Sometimes it sucks when you're the only person whose parents don't trust you to be out late at night. Well, I guess I should just be grateful I could even go to the LAN. Or something. I dunno, it kind of ends my day on a down note, but I think that might just be myself being selfish.
On a happier note, Dave was being nice, if back to his pervy self again. I guess he.. well, that's probably not my information to tell. Anyways, I gave April the Sixth Day album and collected the money for it, and I also got Coke. Yay! I love CocaCola. [heart] Trent and Cris and April and Tazer were fun to talk to, and Kaitlen was interesting to hang out with too. I Haxxed her sketchbook and drew some random half-fnished chick in it. She looked really lonely. The girl I drew, that is.
Saw Amanda (Ferret) in front of Longs Drugstore while getting headache meds for Oscar, strangely enough, and found out she was meeting up with Rip and some others for a comiking party (Manga and the sorts). Nifty sounding. Talked to her for a bit, and then drove back to the LAN. Oh yes, and Satan has crazy climbing and pain-resistance skills. I bow down. Well, probably not, cause that might be dangerous XD but you get the idea.
Giiiiiiiiiiir, for guy friends with big brother complexes. T_T;;
I want to go see Hidalgo.
My sister offered to take me to see it next week after work sometime... but that doesn't really boost my spirits much cause I kinda really wanted to see it with my friends. I appreciate the effort, though. I know she wants to see it too, so this whole resentment feeling is most likely just tainting everything I think about tonight.
I want someone else in my life, too. Since New Year's, really. I don't know who yet, but damned if I'm not gonna find out. There's got to be more in this town that isn't snooty koreans or guys who've cycled through most of my friends. It's.... wierd, getting involved with someone you're good friends with. Like Kiyomi? I would've asked her out a year ago if we hadn't become such good friends. Well, I guess that really doesn't matter now, though. She's changed so much, and after giving up for those few months, she found out it's harder to fix your mistakes than you think it is. I guess I really don't know her anymore. It makes me sad, because she was one of the few people I really clicked with. The kind of best friend that ends your sentences for you and that you can order food for because you know exactly what they feel like having. Heh. Apparently all of my best friends end up leaving. I must be jinxed.
Blah. I'm gonna stop babbling on about all this depressing crap. Once I graduate highschool, I want to go to school far away from this pathetic town, and hopefully stay away from this sweltering, muggy hellhole permanently. I guess I'll just have to wait and see if the opportunity presents itself.
.alieu
