.|SWEET|...:White Chocolate Taint:...|SIN|.
+ i understand the fascination, the dream that comes alive at night... +
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5.23.2004
Lalalala.... Blogger hosts images now, this totally fucking rocks! <3
I LOVE YOU, BLOGGER! X3
Anyways... i'm gonna go set up my hello account and see how this BloggerBot thinummy works. Yay!
Oh, and I finally fixed my network since I dunno what the fuck I did to it last night... teehee. I got home and I was like... why does my internet keep frizzing out? Oh ...is my computer still trying to connect to the LAN network... o.O! Ohnoes. I go to try and connect to my home network, but my mom's done some manual setup on all of the computers, and I'm like ...WTF? Whatever. I just go through the wizardy thingummy and it's like, Oh Look! Network! Copy Settings~ and I'm like, YAY. And then my internet is like, "I STILL HATE YOU. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH." -.-;; Fucking SureWest. Err... well, I redid the thingummy again just now, and it seems to be working fine, so, uh.... yeah. Whatever. I'm so clueless on the important things about hardware and scripting and networking and all that sort of stuff... Blah. It runs. X3
.alieu
I LOVE YOU, BLOGGER! X3
Anyways... i'm gonna go set up my hello account and see how this BloggerBot thinummy works. Yay!
Oh, and I finally fixed my network since I dunno what the fuck I did to it last night... teehee. I got home and I was like... why does my internet keep frizzing out? Oh ...is my computer still trying to connect to the LAN network... o.O! Ohnoes. I go to try and connect to my home network, but my mom's done some manual setup on all of the computers, and I'm like ...WTF? Whatever. I just go through the wizardy thingummy and it's like, Oh Look! Network! Copy Settings~ and I'm like, YAY. And then my internet is like, "I STILL HATE YOU. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH." -.-;; Fucking SureWest. Err... well, I redid the thingummy again just now, and it seems to be working fine, so, uh.... yeah. Whatever. I'm so clueless on the important things about hardware and scripting and networking and all that sort of stuff... Blah. It runs. X3
.alieu
5.22.2004
Bored? Take the test.
S.A.G.E. Test Results
Your Raw Score is: 455, which indicates that overall you are Androgynous
Your appearance is Feminine
Your brain processes are mostly that of a Female person.
You appear to socialize in a androgynous manner.
You believe you have mild conflicts about your gender identity.
You indicated your were born Female.
ANALYSIS:
Female to Male Crossdresser
NOTES:
Your Answers indicate your psychological state has likely prevailed since you were quite young.
You are in a statistical minority as a bisexual crossdresser. Most crossdressers are heterosexual. Your motivation for crossdressing may be driven by the binary nature of your sexuality, as a way to more fully explore the Male gender role.
S.A.G.E. Test Results
Your Raw Score is: 455, which indicates that overall you are Androgynous
Your appearance is Feminine
Your brain processes are mostly that of a Female person.
You appear to socialize in a androgynous manner.
You believe you have mild conflicts about your gender identity.
You indicated your were born Female.
ANALYSIS:
Female to Male Crossdresser
NOTES:
Your Answers indicate your psychological state has likely prevailed since you were quite young.
You are in a statistical minority as a bisexual crossdresser. Most crossdressers are heterosexual. Your motivation for crossdressing may be driven by the binary nature of your sexuality, as a way to more fully explore the Male gender role.
5.17.2004
http://portalhopping.keenspace.com/d/20030504.html
way too amusing. (Tazer linked me X3)
http://forums.megatokyo.com/index.php?showtopic=411528&hl=
Oh my god.
It's pretty sad when half of my buddies who posted on that thread are unregistered now because their accounts were inactive for at least 6 months when they cleaned the forums. Oh man. I remember having two custom titles, one was the Zen's Waffle Princess way back when we were still... something.. and the other was the Neko Neko Fangirl one. Good times, good times.
And on that note, just cause placido's sig is TOO FUNNY not to pass up... http://forums.megatokyo.com/index.php?showtopic=643724&st=50
This is the same Placido we all love dearly for bringing up that lovely Brazillian Lube Ad. XD
way too amusing. (Tazer linked me X3)
http://forums.megatokyo.com/index.php?showtopic=411528&hl=
Oh my god.
It's pretty sad when half of my buddies who posted on that thread are unregistered now because their accounts were inactive for at least 6 months when they cleaned the forums. Oh man. I remember having two custom titles, one was the Zen's Waffle Princess way back when we were still... something.. and the other was the Neko Neko Fangirl one. Good times, good times.
And on that note, just cause placido's sig is TOO FUNNY not to pass up... http://forums.megatokyo.com/index.php?showtopic=643724&st=50
This is the same Placido we all love dearly for bringing up that lovely Brazillian Lube Ad. XD
5.09.2004
OMFG. So Blogger TOTALLY revamped.... and it looks like crap. @.@;; Well, the front page isn't so bad... but all this 'dashboard' stuff and the way everything is overcategorized... it's hell when you've got a slow connection. You have to wait for every page, all like, 12 of them, to load if you want to changfe your settings or posts, instead of it all being right there in like, 3 or 4 different pages. Blah. Personally, I liked the old look better, the rounded stuff is nice, but the older layout/setup was much easier to navigate. :/
Anyways, uhh... what was I going to post about? Oh right. Uhhh...
...
Damnit.
Oh well. Not much to say, really, but school is driving me into a nice large very very very deep pit. My grades suck this term. -_-;; And I STILL haven't had time to get a portfolio together to show Mr. B. >.<;; SHIT. This sucks. I'm off to bed.
Oh, and Paul moved in yesterday. :D He's so cool. X3
.alieu
Anyways, uhh... what was I going to post about? Oh right. Uhhh...
...
Damnit.
Oh well. Not much to say, really, but school is driving me into a nice large very very very deep pit. My grades suck this term. -_-;; And I STILL haven't had time to get a portfolio together to show Mr. B. >.<;; SHIT. This sucks. I'm off to bed.
Oh, and Paul moved in yesterday. :D He's so cool. X3
.alieu
5.08.2004
5.07.2004
Oh man. I'm so so so very sorry, Mike, April, and Anthony.
Be forewarned, DO NOT read this entry if you're easily grossed out, or get sick when you hear someone else describing the sensation of throwing up, like I do. Also, there are spoilers for the Van Hellsing movie.
So, I started off today feeling pretty woozy, like yesterday. Not exactly a promising sign. So after moaning and rolling around in bed for an extra ten minutes trying to make the irky feelings go away, I stumbled out of bed and scrambled to get ready for school. Barely made it to school on time, and resigned myself to a day of catching up and extra work. History was pretty easy, I finished my quiz in class and turned it in, and found out that yesterday all I missed was a day to work on our Decades projects. Science wasn't so bad either, Mrs. Zimmerman even waived my homework assignment for me. Things were looking up. Art was subbed by Mr. Brockman, and we watched that one football show with Denzel Washington while we worked, so that was cool. Really good movie. Then lunch rolls along by and I call my dad to tell him I won't be home til 8, and then arrange for a ride to and from the theatre with April and Satan in Mike's car. Whee. Pretty damn nifty. Off to fourth period, where Karl makes his entrance with his button-up shirt open over.... well, his chest, and a large portion of his boxers showing. He says it was to show that guys don't have a dress code at school, but I wouldn't have minded personally if he walked around like that all the time. Something about those waify guys... anyhow, had lots of fun talking with Karl and Satan about random perversions and Karl's short story idea. Also found out I only missed a day of Play rehearsals. Sweet! Things are getting better and better. Satan plays a mean guitar, and apparently the new kid listens to really good music. Whee.
So school ends, and I mosey on over to the Aquatics center with Satan to meet Mike and April so we can head over to SunSplash. Doop doop. Satan runs back to class to get the Ra CD he forgot, and then we all crowd into Mike's '91 Buick. Bwahaha. I think we spent more time making fun of it than actually driving, but hey, it's a car, that's all that really matters. So we're in the car, and April already has a headache and is falling asleep, and Satan and I are in the backseat making perverted comments and getting the beginnings of headaches (well, I was anyhow). Argh. It's like that faint, almost not-there itch int he back of your throat that isn't bad enough to be painful, but just enough to be annoying, and won't go away when you drink a glass of water. So we get to SunSplash, and I'm reallly starting to feel the headache coming on. I ignore it and blow money on the crane machine with the stuffed animals (teehee. what can I say, old habits die hard, and I'm a sucker for crane machines!) and I win myself a cute little raccoon on my second try. Not bad, a animal for a buck in an arcade. Oh, did I mention I got a double scoop of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, right before that? Whee. Headache going away, and feeling much more cheery with a tummy full of ouce kweam and an armful of stuffed toy. :3 So I get bored, and Cris, Jay, Nick, and JonDek haven't showed up yet, so I got waste another like, three dollars, trying to get my little kitten. Yay. Now I have a racoon AND a kitty. Tanukis and pussycats. X3 Err, anyhow, I waste two bucks in the coin sliding/pushing-over-edge thingummy, and then we're all bored, so me and April go back to the crane machine. Then Cris joins us. Then JonDek, Nick, Satan, Mike, and Jay join us. Whee. Al of us crowded around this silly crane machine full of stuffed animals, cheering and wasting money. In the end, I won quite a few animals, and everyone else got a try at it, except Jay and Mike who just stood by and watched. We walked away with like, 8 or 9 animals, all bummed because we couldn't grab the pink elephant that somehow everyone suddenly wanted after April asked for it. X3 So we all load up again and head over to United Artists. Everyone gets tickets and sodas and me and Cris split a tub full of butter. Err, I mean, Buttered popcorn. >.> ^^; We all grab like, half a row of seats, and are loud and obnoxious during the previews and commercials. On that note, I really want to see the CatWoman movie now. Dude, Halle Berry is so hot, and that little leather bit she wears as her catsuit? Oh god. With that whip.... /swoon. She is so sexy. Err, enough on that. The movie starts, and we're pretty loud durng that, too. X3 gay jokes abound, as I fail to see Van Hellsing as anyone other than Wolverine, and no one can figure out who the hell the Friar is, even though we all know we've seen him before. The movie was pretty entertaining, definately a 9 on the cheesy scale, and an 8 on the bad special effects scale, and probably a 10 on the cliche rating... but it was funny. The little minion-jawwa-piranha-thingummies were quite funny, and me and Cris agreed that they were like Ewoks with GasMasks on. Cute, in a slightly morbid manner, expecially when they caught fire and ran around in circles squeaking. Dracula was so FLAMING, and so was Van Hellsing, for that matter, and I think we laughed for most of the movie. It was supposed to be scary and dramatic... but it was so cliche and just... amusing, that we just laughed and laughed when everyone else was silent. Whoo. Go us. X3 The chick was pretty sexy, with that bodice and that ASS in those pants... but meh. I'm surprised her boobs never got bloody or ripped off after all the frontal scraping across walls she did everytime she fought the Female Vampyres. I swear they were Harpies, and not Vampyres. Her brother was cute before he went all skin-shedding lycanthrope, but he was pretty cool, except how he kept falling into the river. He looked REALLY good all tied up. Mmmm.... Uh, where was I? The little bat-vampyre-baby things were REALLY funny looking when they exploded. Wheeeeeeee~! XD JonDek had to leave before the movie finished, and when it was over, Jay told us that the Friar-dude (totally like a Cabin Boy, we all know why Hellsing *REALLY* brought him along... sex fiend, I tell you! It's always the quiet ones you have to watch, did you see that chick sprawled out on the couch afterwards? Oh yeah. You just know he's good. XDXDXD) was the same actor that played Faramir. WHOO!! I knew there was a reason I liked him!!! (I always thought that the guy who played Faramir was kinda cute. X3) <3 Anyhow, At one point in the movie, I felt really sick since my headache kept getting worse, and I had to lean over and swallow the bile I felt rising in my throat because I didn't want to throw up and the movie was right at the climax. After about ten minutes of feeling like I was really about the puke, everything settled down enough for me to watch the ending. My headache was still small, but enough that when combined with the nausea from feeling like I was going to throw up, I was sitting on the floor by the door trying to breathe more and taste less.
So then everyone is ready to leave again, and I'm violently, disgustingly sick in the parking lot. I had collected myself enough to stand up and walk, but while we were walking,t he bile kept rising in the back of my throat, and I could feel that heat that tells you you're just about to puke. I'm walking for about a minute with my hand over my mouth when it becomes too much to hold down, and it's a good thing everyone's in front of me so that no one had to watch as I turned around and promptly spewed over the sewer grate. Rather quickly, too: it took about 2 seconds for me to empty out my stomache entirely. Popcorn, Coke, Ice Cream, and stomache acids. Revolting. At least I had time enough to hurl down through a sewer grate. So I'm kneeling in front of this sewer grate, puke down my left sleeve and a bit of my hair where I couldn't pull it back in time, and sprinkling the front of my jeans and boots. I think I'm nearly hyperventilating, but I'm not sure. April was really fast in noticing something was wrong, and came back to help me. Everyone in Jay's car had already left, and some nice people asked if I was okay. April helped me move a bit, and a guy who said he was a Doctor stopped to see if I was okay. When I looked up, I saw a policeman there too, and a nice lady in a car offered me an unopened bottle of water. A lady that passed by told me to sit on the curb, which I did. I rinsed out my mouth and Anthony brought me napkins and Mike brought the car around, and all of it was put in motion by April. She really knew what to do and didn't freak out or stand around clueless, and I'm very grateful for that. I kicked gunk off my shoes and pants, and wrapped my arm around what was on my hair and sweater, holding my left fist to my mouth in case anything else decided to surface, and also to keep everything dirty shielded from getting onto Mike's car. It must have been bad enough to deal with as it was, and I felt bad already, so I didn't want to get his car dirty. April directed him to my house, and I left the toys with April and the three of them were nice enough to help me with my stuff and such. I thanked them and apologized, and they drove off back to SunSplash to meet the others, and I dashed inside, dropped my school bag and art project, and went straight into the bathroom.
If you've ever thrown up, you know how sickening the smell/taste of it is, and so I stripped and showered as my first priority. Bleh. I shoved my nasty clothes into a plastic bag until I could wash them, and scrubbed at my boots with water and a rag until they were clean again. Finally clean again. Satan had given me some schpeel about taking vitamin C, so I figured it made sense,a nd went out into the backyard to see if there were still any oranges on the trees. No luck. Well, that's okay, I did the next best thing. Kumquats are citrus fruits, right? ^^;; Anyhow, after that I ate dinner, and it was really sickening at first since everything reminded me of the taste of bile, but after the first five mouthfuls it wasn't so bad. Bread helped, but the minestrone was kind of gross. It would have been wonderful soup had he not added instant ramen noodles to it. Yuck. There were some odd assortment of vegetables (those frozen in a bag kind) and small chunks of unidentifiable processed meat, probably SPAM, that was really icky. The good stuff was the light green pea/bean thingys. They were sort of flat, and reminded me of lima beans, except for they were more in the shape of a half of a heart. Really tasty. Then my dad made me an egg, and for some reason, I've always had this thing with eggs. No matter how I'm feeling, an egg, cooked one way or another, will always suit my appetite. I dunno, I'm an egg person. But I really don't get how you can find those egg fetish pictures from 4chan erotic, Jason. Well, whatever floats your boat, I guess. Err, anyways, eating helped, even though there was one point about halfway through the meal where I felt that flash of warmth in the back of my throat and feared I would throw up again. At least I had food in me, because dry-heaving really sucks. I came upstairs about an hour ago, now, and watched episode 10 of E's Otherwise while writing this.
I guess I should shut up now; I'm feeling a lot better. I guess this is what I get for holding back the urge to vomit for two days. I still feel bad for Mike, April, and Satan, cause they had to put up with me and take me home early and were presented witht he embarrassing problem of what to do when your friend ges disgustingly sick in public, but I'm glad they did what they did. Especially April. <3 I suppose this means I really should listen to my own advice. I keep bugging Matt to eat more, since that will make him feel better and get less weak/lethargic-y, and here's me, thinking I can get by with two meals in three days because I slept most of one day, and then going and downing ice cream and popcorn and soda for the first foods in my stomach in 20 hours. Not too bright sometimes, really.
I'm sorry Mike, I hope your car doesn't smell like vomit or anything after I was in it, thanks for driving me home early. <3 I tried really hard not to get anything on your car, and I didn't see anything, but if I missed something, I'm sorry!!! >.<;; Thanks April, and thanks Satan. You guys are the best. Thanks too, Cris, cause I know you were worried before you left, and I wuv you too~ <3 <3 <3
Hrm. Lightheadedness = sap. Blah. Well, that's what has happened, and that's that. Thank you guys, you're the greatest. @-,--
.alieu
Be forewarned, DO NOT read this entry if you're easily grossed out, or get sick when you hear someone else describing the sensation of throwing up, like I do. Also, there are spoilers for the Van Hellsing movie.
So, I started off today feeling pretty woozy, like yesterday. Not exactly a promising sign. So after moaning and rolling around in bed for an extra ten minutes trying to make the irky feelings go away, I stumbled out of bed and scrambled to get ready for school. Barely made it to school on time, and resigned myself to a day of catching up and extra work. History was pretty easy, I finished my quiz in class and turned it in, and found out that yesterday all I missed was a day to work on our Decades projects. Science wasn't so bad either, Mrs. Zimmerman even waived my homework assignment for me. Things were looking up. Art was subbed by Mr. Brockman, and we watched that one football show with Denzel Washington while we worked, so that was cool. Really good movie. Then lunch rolls along by and I call my dad to tell him I won't be home til 8, and then arrange for a ride to and from the theatre with April and Satan in Mike's car. Whee. Pretty damn nifty. Off to fourth period, where Karl makes his entrance with his button-up shirt open over.... well, his chest, and a large portion of his boxers showing. He says it was to show that guys don't have a dress code at school, but I wouldn't have minded personally if he walked around like that all the time. Something about those waify guys... anyhow, had lots of fun talking with Karl and Satan about random perversions and Karl's short story idea. Also found out I only missed a day of Play rehearsals. Sweet! Things are getting better and better. Satan plays a mean guitar, and apparently the new kid listens to really good music. Whee.
So school ends, and I mosey on over to the Aquatics center with Satan to meet Mike and April so we can head over to SunSplash. Doop doop. Satan runs back to class to get the Ra CD he forgot, and then we all crowd into Mike's '91 Buick. Bwahaha. I think we spent more time making fun of it than actually driving, but hey, it's a car, that's all that really matters. So we're in the car, and April already has a headache and is falling asleep, and Satan and I are in the backseat making perverted comments and getting the beginnings of headaches (well, I was anyhow). Argh. It's like that faint, almost not-there itch int he back of your throat that isn't bad enough to be painful, but just enough to be annoying, and won't go away when you drink a glass of water. So we get to SunSplash, and I'm reallly starting to feel the headache coming on. I ignore it and blow money on the crane machine with the stuffed animals (teehee. what can I say, old habits die hard, and I'm a sucker for crane machines!) and I win myself a cute little raccoon on my second try. Not bad, a animal for a buck in an arcade. Oh, did I mention I got a double scoop of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, right before that? Whee. Headache going away, and feeling much more cheery with a tummy full of ouce kweam and an armful of stuffed toy. :3 So I get bored, and Cris, Jay, Nick, and JonDek haven't showed up yet, so I got waste another like, three dollars, trying to get my little kitten. Yay. Now I have a racoon AND a kitty. Tanukis and pussycats. X3 Err, anyhow, I waste two bucks in the coin sliding/pushing-over-edge thingummy, and then we're all bored, so me and April go back to the crane machine. Then Cris joins us. Then JonDek, Nick, Satan, Mike, and Jay join us. Whee. Al of us crowded around this silly crane machine full of stuffed animals, cheering and wasting money. In the end, I won quite a few animals, and everyone else got a try at it, except Jay and Mike who just stood by and watched. We walked away with like, 8 or 9 animals, all bummed because we couldn't grab the pink elephant that somehow everyone suddenly wanted after April asked for it. X3 So we all load up again and head over to United Artists. Everyone gets tickets and sodas and me and Cris split a tub full of butter. Err, I mean, Buttered popcorn. >.> ^^; We all grab like, half a row of seats, and are loud and obnoxious during the previews and commercials. On that note, I really want to see the CatWoman movie now. Dude, Halle Berry is so hot, and that little leather bit she wears as her catsuit? Oh god. With that whip.... /swoon. She is so sexy. Err, enough on that. The movie starts, and we're pretty loud durng that, too. X3 gay jokes abound, as I fail to see Van Hellsing as anyone other than Wolverine, and no one can figure out who the hell the Friar is, even though we all know we've seen him before. The movie was pretty entertaining, definately a 9 on the cheesy scale, and an 8 on the bad special effects scale, and probably a 10 on the cliche rating... but it was funny. The little minion-jawwa-piranha-thingummies were quite funny, and me and Cris agreed that they were like Ewoks with GasMasks on. Cute, in a slightly morbid manner, expecially when they caught fire and ran around in circles squeaking. Dracula was so FLAMING, and so was Van Hellsing, for that matter, and I think we laughed for most of the movie. It was supposed to be scary and dramatic... but it was so cliche and just... amusing, that we just laughed and laughed when everyone else was silent. Whoo. Go us. X3 The chick was pretty sexy, with that bodice and that ASS in those pants... but meh. I'm surprised her boobs never got bloody or ripped off after all the frontal scraping across walls she did everytime she fought the Female Vampyres. I swear they were Harpies, and not Vampyres. Her brother was cute before he went all skin-shedding lycanthrope, but he was pretty cool, except how he kept falling into the river. He looked REALLY good all tied up. Mmmm.... Uh, where was I? The little bat-vampyre-baby things were REALLY funny looking when they exploded. Wheeeeeeee~! XD JonDek had to leave before the movie finished, and when it was over, Jay told us that the Friar-dude (totally like a Cabin Boy, we all know why Hellsing *REALLY* brought him along... sex fiend, I tell you! It's always the quiet ones you have to watch, did you see that chick sprawled out on the couch afterwards? Oh yeah. You just know he's good. XDXDXD) was the same actor that played Faramir. WHOO!! I knew there was a reason I liked him!!! (I always thought that the guy who played Faramir was kinda cute. X3) <3 Anyhow, At one point in the movie, I felt really sick since my headache kept getting worse, and I had to lean over and swallow the bile I felt rising in my throat because I didn't want to throw up and the movie was right at the climax. After about ten minutes of feeling like I was really about the puke, everything settled down enough for me to watch the ending. My headache was still small, but enough that when combined with the nausea from feeling like I was going to throw up, I was sitting on the floor by the door trying to breathe more and taste less.
So then everyone is ready to leave again, and I'm violently, disgustingly sick in the parking lot. I had collected myself enough to stand up and walk, but while we were walking,t he bile kept rising in the back of my throat, and I could feel that heat that tells you you're just about to puke. I'm walking for about a minute with my hand over my mouth when it becomes too much to hold down, and it's a good thing everyone's in front of me so that no one had to watch as I turned around and promptly spewed over the sewer grate. Rather quickly, too: it took about 2 seconds for me to empty out my stomache entirely. Popcorn, Coke, Ice Cream, and stomache acids. Revolting. At least I had time enough to hurl down through a sewer grate. So I'm kneeling in front of this sewer grate, puke down my left sleeve and a bit of my hair where I couldn't pull it back in time, and sprinkling the front of my jeans and boots. I think I'm nearly hyperventilating, but I'm not sure. April was really fast in noticing something was wrong, and came back to help me. Everyone in Jay's car had already left, and some nice people asked if I was okay. April helped me move a bit, and a guy who said he was a Doctor stopped to see if I was okay. When I looked up, I saw a policeman there too, and a nice lady in a car offered me an unopened bottle of water. A lady that passed by told me to sit on the curb, which I did. I rinsed out my mouth and Anthony brought me napkins and Mike brought the car around, and all of it was put in motion by April. She really knew what to do and didn't freak out or stand around clueless, and I'm very grateful for that. I kicked gunk off my shoes and pants, and wrapped my arm around what was on my hair and sweater, holding my left fist to my mouth in case anything else decided to surface, and also to keep everything dirty shielded from getting onto Mike's car. It must have been bad enough to deal with as it was, and I felt bad already, so I didn't want to get his car dirty. April directed him to my house, and I left the toys with April and the three of them were nice enough to help me with my stuff and such. I thanked them and apologized, and they drove off back to SunSplash to meet the others, and I dashed inside, dropped my school bag and art project, and went straight into the bathroom.
If you've ever thrown up, you know how sickening the smell/taste of it is, and so I stripped and showered as my first priority. Bleh. I shoved my nasty clothes into a plastic bag until I could wash them, and scrubbed at my boots with water and a rag until they were clean again. Finally clean again. Satan had given me some schpeel about taking vitamin C, so I figured it made sense,a nd went out into the backyard to see if there were still any oranges on the trees. No luck. Well, that's okay, I did the next best thing. Kumquats are citrus fruits, right? ^^;; Anyhow, after that I ate dinner, and it was really sickening at first since everything reminded me of the taste of bile, but after the first five mouthfuls it wasn't so bad. Bread helped, but the minestrone was kind of gross. It would have been wonderful soup had he not added instant ramen noodles to it. Yuck. There were some odd assortment of vegetables (those frozen in a bag kind) and small chunks of unidentifiable processed meat, probably SPAM, that was really icky. The good stuff was the light green pea/bean thingys. They were sort of flat, and reminded me of lima beans, except for they were more in the shape of a half of a heart. Really tasty. Then my dad made me an egg, and for some reason, I've always had this thing with eggs. No matter how I'm feeling, an egg, cooked one way or another, will always suit my appetite. I dunno, I'm an egg person. But I really don't get how you can find those egg fetish pictures from 4chan erotic, Jason. Well, whatever floats your boat, I guess. Err, anyways, eating helped, even though there was one point about halfway through the meal where I felt that flash of warmth in the back of my throat and feared I would throw up again. At least I had food in me, because dry-heaving really sucks. I came upstairs about an hour ago, now, and watched episode 10 of E's Otherwise while writing this.
I guess I should shut up now; I'm feeling a lot better. I guess this is what I get for holding back the urge to vomit for two days. I still feel bad for Mike, April, and Satan, cause they had to put up with me and take me home early and were presented witht he embarrassing problem of what to do when your friend ges disgustingly sick in public, but I'm glad they did what they did. Especially April. <3 I suppose this means I really should listen to my own advice. I keep bugging Matt to eat more, since that will make him feel better and get less weak/lethargic-y, and here's me, thinking I can get by with two meals in three days because I slept most of one day, and then going and downing ice cream and popcorn and soda for the first foods in my stomach in 20 hours. Not too bright sometimes, really.
I'm sorry Mike, I hope your car doesn't smell like vomit or anything after I was in it, thanks for driving me home early. <3 I tried really hard not to get anything on your car, and I didn't see anything, but if I missed something, I'm sorry!!! >.<;; Thanks April, and thanks Satan. You guys are the best. Thanks too, Cris, cause I know you were worried before you left, and I wuv you too~ <3 <3 <3
Hrm. Lightheadedness = sap. Blah. Well, that's what has happened, and that's that. Thank you guys, you're the greatest. @-,--
.alieu
5.06.2004
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This sucks.
I woke up this morning feeling like shit, and I still feel like shit. I was all woozy and nauseous and had a headache. So naturally, I went back to sleep. Who the hell likes throwing up?! Dad made me wake up to eat lunch, which in retrospect, was probably a good idea. Blah. I slept practically the whole damn day, and while normally I would LOVE to sleep all day, it really really really REALLY sucks when it sets you back a day. I have so much stuff to do, and the least I could have gotten out of this whole mess would have been time to catch up on what I've been working on. But nooooo, I missed school, work, AND class, with nothing to show for it besides MORE WORK TO CATCH UP ON. This fucking bites. Stupid, uh, whatever the fuck it is I have.
...ARGH. They need to make 48 hour days.
.alieu
This sucks.
I woke up this morning feeling like shit, and I still feel like shit. I was all woozy and nauseous and had a headache. So naturally, I went back to sleep. Who the hell likes throwing up?! Dad made me wake up to eat lunch, which in retrospect, was probably a good idea. Blah. I slept practically the whole damn day, and while normally I would LOVE to sleep all day, it really really really REALLY sucks when it sets you back a day. I have so much stuff to do, and the least I could have gotten out of this whole mess would have been time to catch up on what I've been working on. But nooooo, I missed school, work, AND class, with nothing to show for it besides MORE WORK TO CATCH UP ON. This fucking bites. Stupid, uh, whatever the fuck it is I have.
...ARGH. They need to make 48 hour days.
.alieu
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5.03.2004
Come on people, give me a clue in, here. It's anonymous, and even if you leave your name, I won't know anything except that you took the quiz.
.alieu
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Whee. AIM logs.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: augh, omg, wanna hear something creepy?
Tazer Okibi: sure
AlieuSylvrstrymz: k, so like... i was sitting here (hahah, i'm gonna tell you anyways.) and i'm typing up some sstuff in word. then i see this black DOT thing move above my monitor. I look up, and there's this HUGE ASS SPIDER on the wall behind my monitor. Like, the size of a quarter. Black, with nasty creepy fat legs. It wa so fuckin scary, I jumped in my chair. So like, it freezes when I jump, and I'm staring at it, kinda paralyzed. Then it like... moves it's butt part. Shakes it. Hahaha, it shook it's butt. If i wasn't so freaked out, I'd have laughed. anyways, I'm staring at it, and I'm like... Mom, come over here. Kill this spider for me. X3 so she comes over, and she DROPS THE SPIDER when she tries to smush it.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: AAAAAH. It's loose again.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: so now i'm all paranoid.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: because it's alive, crawling around behind my desk somewhere.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: X3
Tazer Okibi: XD
Tazer Okibi: lol
Tazer Okibi: eww
Tazer Okibi: *be's cruel* hope it doesnt crawl into your mouth as you sleep
AlieuSylvrstrymz: I was so twitchy, I totally flipped out when this cord fell against my arm.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: and like, I had those shivers for five minutes after it dropped down.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: AHHHHHHHHHHH.
Tazer Okibi: XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: EWEWEWEWEW
AlieuSylvrstrymz: that's so gross
Tazer Okibi: X3
AlieuSylvrstrymz: and nasty
AlieuSylvrstrymz: and omg
AlieuSylvrstrymz: AHHHH
AlieuSylvrstrymz: /thwaps.
Tazer Okibi: you know, humans eat about 12 bugs a year while sleeping
AlieuSylvrstrymz: I know.
Tazer Okibi: because they crawl into your mouth
AlieuSylvrstrymz: EW.
Tazer Okibi: idiots
AlieuSylvrstrymz: BLAH
Tazer Okibi: XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: well, better they crawl in your mouth than up your nose. XD
Tazer Okibi: whats wrong with up your nose?
Tazer Okibi: then they go into your wind pipe and you die
AlieuSylvrstrymz: can you imagine INHALING a spider?
Tazer Okibi: yea
Tazer Okibi: i answered my own question XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: omg. i'd be so freaked out if I woke up and there was something crawling up my nose.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: hahahaha
AlieuSylvrstrymz: but anyways.
Tazer Okibi: oops
AlieuSylvrstrymz: now that you have yet another tale of my paranoia and arachnaphobia, I think i'm gonna try and get some sleep. and not eat any spiders.
Tazer Okibi: forgot to color tazers ear XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: lol
Tazer Okibi: ok
Tazer Okibi: have fun
Uhh.. yeah. And stuff. Okay, g'nite.
.alieu
AlieuSylvrstrymz: augh, omg, wanna hear something creepy?
Tazer Okibi: sure
AlieuSylvrstrymz: k, so like... i was sitting here (hahah, i'm gonna tell you anyways.) and i'm typing up some sstuff in word. then i see this black DOT thing move above my monitor. I look up, and there's this HUGE ASS SPIDER on the wall behind my monitor. Like, the size of a quarter. Black, with nasty creepy fat legs. It wa so fuckin scary, I jumped in my chair. So like, it freezes when I jump, and I'm staring at it, kinda paralyzed. Then it like... moves it's butt part. Shakes it. Hahaha, it shook it's butt. If i wasn't so freaked out, I'd have laughed. anyways, I'm staring at it, and I'm like... Mom, come over here. Kill this spider for me. X3 so she comes over, and she DROPS THE SPIDER when she tries to smush it.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: AAAAAH. It's loose again.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: so now i'm all paranoid.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: because it's alive, crawling around behind my desk somewhere.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: X3
Tazer Okibi: XD
Tazer Okibi: lol
Tazer Okibi: eww
Tazer Okibi: *be's cruel* hope it doesnt crawl into your mouth as you sleep
AlieuSylvrstrymz: I was so twitchy, I totally flipped out when this cord fell against my arm.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: and like, I had those shivers for five minutes after it dropped down.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: AHHHHHHHHHHH.
Tazer Okibi: XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: EWEWEWEWEW
AlieuSylvrstrymz: that's so gross
Tazer Okibi: X3
AlieuSylvrstrymz: and nasty
AlieuSylvrstrymz: and omg
AlieuSylvrstrymz: AHHHH
AlieuSylvrstrymz: /thwaps.
Tazer Okibi: you know, humans eat about 12 bugs a year while sleeping
AlieuSylvrstrymz: I know.
Tazer Okibi: because they crawl into your mouth
AlieuSylvrstrymz: EW.
Tazer Okibi: idiots
AlieuSylvrstrymz: BLAH
Tazer Okibi: XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: well, better they crawl in your mouth than up your nose. XD
Tazer Okibi: whats wrong with up your nose?
Tazer Okibi: then they go into your wind pipe and you die
AlieuSylvrstrymz: can you imagine INHALING a spider?
Tazer Okibi: yea
Tazer Okibi: i answered my own question XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: omg. i'd be so freaked out if I woke up and there was something crawling up my nose.
AlieuSylvrstrymz: hahahaha
AlieuSylvrstrymz: but anyways.
Tazer Okibi: oops
AlieuSylvrstrymz: now that you have yet another tale of my paranoia and arachnaphobia, I think i'm gonna try and get some sleep. and not eat any spiders.
Tazer Okibi: forgot to color tazers ear XD
AlieuSylvrstrymz: lol
Tazer Okibi: ok
Tazer Okibi: have fun
Uhh.. yeah. And stuff. Okay, g'nite.
.alieu
5.01.2004
This is getting really annoying. I have all this webspace at 1and1, but i can't frigging upload anything other than images. It's so stupid. They have all this applications to 'help you make a website', in other words, it's a 'website for dummies' setup, and you can't do other more advanced stuff unelss you want to script in PERL. Or something like that. Blah.
.alieu
.alieu
