OMFG, people read this??!?!?! Uhh... don't mind me, trying to be funny. Not really working. Whatever. Anywho, my posts lately have been shit, so here's a question for all of you to contemplate and analyze and overanalyze.

There are things you never say. Things you think of in your mind, negative things and snide remarks about other people and actions you witness. Scathing, unfair, hateful remarks full of jealousy and angst and hatred and all-around not-niceness. These traits are, of course, why you do not voice these thoughts. The ones that are critical of people around you and ask stupid questions and wonder why this or that isn't as good as that or this. Everyone has them. It's like the obscenities you yell out at other bad drivers on the road in your car when they cut you off. It's all well and good as long as the other person doesn't actually hear you say it. They can't do anything about it, and they won't judge you based on it, because they didn't even know it happened. Why, then, do we keep these things inside of us, and set up these false pretenses to everyone around us? Why do we keep these critisms to ourselves, even when dealing with our closest friends? Do they really know you, if you are only showing them a restrained and masked side of your true personality? Do you really know any of YOUR friends? It's funny, everyone always thinks, "So-and-so would never ever do anything so hateful to so-and-so... I just know it, it's not in their nature!" But that's not true. Inside their minds they probably *had* done things just as horrid many many many times over. That's just how human minds are. It's different, you say, because they don't act on it! But is it really? The motive and mental state was there. Actions may define us, but essentially we are all guilty of being murdering, calculating, distainful creatures in our minds. Just because only we ourselves know that fact doesn't change the fact that we are what we are.

Human.

...so much philosophy and psych at this time of morning makes my head hurt.


.alieu
 
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