.|SWEET|...:White Chocolate Taint:...|SIN|.
+ i understand the fascination, the dream that comes alive at night... +
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1.31.2005
Blah. So.... just... blah. Spent Saturday night with Kiyomi over at her place with Mandakins, that was pretty cool. We had Cris over and when Manda got home we made her go pick up Brian and Tazer. Piled everyone in the converted garage that has become Kiyomi's bedroom and did our whole chicken & porn routine. That sounds so gross now that I think about it... but it's always an amusing way to spend an evening. Cris had to go home, but the rest of us spent the night. Kiyomi and I dragged Tazer and Brian out at like, midnight, and we walked to AMPM to get snacks or something. That was disappointing, since they had NOTHING except for overpriced salsa and ridiculously expensive cereal. So we dragged them to Albertsons. :D We made them walk all the way there cause Kiyomi thought it was open until 3 AM, but they ended up having closed at midnight. Which was a bummer. And Taco Bell wouldn't let us order anything (no car, no drive-thru x.x) which also sucked. So we walked back and bought overpriced salsa and chips. I think it was worth it. :D sort of. I spent a lot of money over the weekend. X_X;;
I gave Amanda $20 for chicken, which somehow I never got change back from, even though the total cost of the chicken and shit they bought was $26 and everyone supposedly pitched in, and then the donuts we got in the morning couldn't have been more than $6 or $7... it's kind of irritating. But I suppose it's alright... I mean, she gave me a ride home, and maybe she gave some of it to Dave since he was the one who drove to get the donuts... I can understand it as gas money. But still. How do I always end up 'contributing' so much when everyone else... doesn't? Blah.
Oh yeah, Dave coming over in the morning on Sunday was pretty cool too, I hadn't seen him in ages, what with him graduating early and all before 2nd term. I still can't believe he's getting married... Married! I mean, he's not that much older than me... @.@;; It's so weird. I keep saying that, but it just doesn't get... old, you know? I'm waiting for my mind to get used to it, but it's not happening. I just keep thinking about how young we all are, and then thinking that maybe we aren't really *that* young... and it just drives me around in annoying circles. >_<;
And here I am, it's past 6 PM, my boss is gone, and I haven't finished my work yet, but I'm posting on my blog and listening to TeniMyu. One of these days I'm gonna get busted for this shit. Blah. Squish.
...SQUISH.
Sorry, that's such a fun word...
I've come to the conclusion that I need to get over my cat fixation. But it's so... HARD! Seeing Grey at Kiyomi/Amanda's and playing with her reminded me how much I've always wanted a cat of my own, or well, a cat that would live in the same house as me. My brother being allergic has always put a stopper on that, and when I was in San Jose I couldn't bear the thought of having a cat for a year and then having to leave it afterwards... Summers at my aunt's house always kept the memories of being able to curl up with and take care of Tiger (and later Nugget and Neko) fresh in my mind, but after I stopped spending every summer with Aunt Kew and Uncle John it sort of just makes it clearer that I'll never have a cat in my own home, not for a long long time anyways.
In a way, I envy those that do, but I can honestly say that I've never EVER blamed my brother for any of my dissappointments in the pets department. Even when he froze my turtle. No really! It's wierd, and I always joke around about it being all his fault, but I don't think I've ever really blamed my brother for any of it. He was the one that got it for me actually, to begin with, I think..? All of the pets I've had have always been well loved by myself and my brother, if not everyone else in the household. When we had hamsters (which my sister HATED) Jeremy and I were the ones who always played with them and fed them and changed the cages. When I had Ping and Pong, Jeremy and my mom were always there with me when I fed them lettuce and reached in to pet their fuzzy yellow heads. With the chickens, Jeremy and my dad were the ones who would help get them back if they flew into the neighbor's backyard, or would sit with me and not complain about how loud the rooster was in the morning/middle of the night. With the fish, hermit crabs, crawdads, and all of Jeremy's exotic marine specimens (lionfish, eel, etc.) while my dad did a lot of the upkeep, Jeremy was the one who would sit in front of the tank with me and play with them, making them follow our fingers or poking dead fish down into the eel's tank just to watch the way it darted out and the bulge of the fish moved along its body. Ed, too, was played with mainly by me, Julia, and Jeremy. I felt so bad for that poor puppy, she was so terrified of my dad and he always yelled at her. She kinda reminded me of Dobby. x.x'
I always feel so close to my brother, though, even when I don't see him a lot. Recently I barely see him, but when I do it's always an easy and calm atmosphere. I dunno. It's a bit confusing, but I love how easy it is to be with him and how he's always there if I need him, no matter what else is going on.
...it's kind of odd how much my serious or introspective posts always turn into rambles about how much my brother means to me and how awesome he is.
...<3
I gave Amanda $20 for chicken, which somehow I never got change back from, even though the total cost of the chicken and shit they bought was $26 and everyone supposedly pitched in, and then the donuts we got in the morning couldn't have been more than $6 or $7... it's kind of irritating. But I suppose it's alright... I mean, she gave me a ride home, and maybe she gave some of it to Dave since he was the one who drove to get the donuts... I can understand it as gas money. But still. How do I always end up 'contributing' so much when everyone else... doesn't? Blah.
Oh yeah, Dave coming over in the morning on Sunday was pretty cool too, I hadn't seen him in ages, what with him graduating early and all before 2nd term. I still can't believe he's getting married... Married! I mean, he's not that much older than me... @.@;; It's so weird. I keep saying that, but it just doesn't get... old, you know? I'm waiting for my mind to get used to it, but it's not happening. I just keep thinking about how young we all are, and then thinking that maybe we aren't really *that* young... and it just drives me around in annoying circles. >_<;
And here I am, it's past 6 PM, my boss is gone, and I haven't finished my work yet, but I'm posting on my blog and listening to TeniMyu. One of these days I'm gonna get busted for this shit. Blah. Squish.
...SQUISH.
Sorry, that's such a fun word...
I've come to the conclusion that I need to get over my cat fixation. But it's so... HARD! Seeing Grey at Kiyomi/Amanda's and playing with her reminded me how much I've always wanted a cat of my own, or well, a cat that would live in the same house as me. My brother being allergic has always put a stopper on that, and when I was in San Jose I couldn't bear the thought of having a cat for a year and then having to leave it afterwards... Summers at my aunt's house always kept the memories of being able to curl up with and take care of Tiger (and later Nugget and Neko) fresh in my mind, but after I stopped spending every summer with Aunt Kew and Uncle John it sort of just makes it clearer that I'll never have a cat in my own home, not for a long long time anyways.
In a way, I envy those that do, but I can honestly say that I've never EVER blamed my brother for any of my dissappointments in the pets department. Even when he froze my turtle. No really! It's wierd, and I always joke around about it being all his fault, but I don't think I've ever really blamed my brother for any of it. He was the one that got it for me actually, to begin with, I think..? All of the pets I've had have always been well loved by myself and my brother, if not everyone else in the household. When we had hamsters (which my sister HATED) Jeremy and I were the ones who always played with them and fed them and changed the cages. When I had Ping and Pong, Jeremy and my mom were always there with me when I fed them lettuce and reached in to pet their fuzzy yellow heads. With the chickens, Jeremy and my dad were the ones who would help get them back if they flew into the neighbor's backyard, or would sit with me and not complain about how loud the rooster was in the morning/middle of the night. With the fish, hermit crabs, crawdads, and all of Jeremy's exotic marine specimens (lionfish, eel, etc.) while my dad did a lot of the upkeep, Jeremy was the one who would sit in front of the tank with me and play with them, making them follow our fingers or poking dead fish down into the eel's tank just to watch the way it darted out and the bulge of the fish moved along its body. Ed, too, was played with mainly by me, Julia, and Jeremy. I felt so bad for that poor puppy, she was so terrified of my dad and he always yelled at her. She kinda reminded me of Dobby. x.x'
I always feel so close to my brother, though, even when I don't see him a lot. Recently I barely see him, but when I do it's always an easy and calm atmosphere. I dunno. It's a bit confusing, but I love how easy it is to be with him and how he's always there if I need him, no matter what else is going on.
...it's kind of odd how much my serious or introspective posts always turn into rambles about how much my brother means to me and how awesome he is.
...<3
1.27.2005
So I made a post a while back, the one about Yanakou... turns out my links were wrong. The things I meant to link were: [this], [this], and [this]. I've fixed them now, but yeah, if the other post didn't make sense with those links then that's why. They were the wrong ones! ^^; The TeniMyu LJ community has it set up so comments are on top of each post instead of the bottom, so I got mixed up on where I was grabbing my link URLs from. :: figets, embarrased ::
...but Yanakou is just too cute~ Hinoai traslated his entry from Tuesday [here], and it's so adorable! I want to pick him up and huggle him and tickle his skinny little waist until he grins like he does in those pictures on his journal. I think they're from cameraphones... they look like it and that's the thing to do over there, since everyone has them.
...but Yanakou is just too cute~ Hinoai traslated his entry from Tuesday [here], and it's so adorable! I want to pick him up and huggle him and tickle his skinny little waist until he grins like he does in those pictures on his journal. I think they're from cameraphones... they look like it and that's the thing to do over there, since everyone has them.
1.24.2005
1.17.2005
You're Tezuka Kunimitsu! The silent, stern captain
who only seems to have one facial expression.
You're a total stud as you are already but you
could try smiling every once in a while. It's
not gonna kill you, you know?
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My dearest dearest Yanagi Kotaroh...
Oh my god. I feel so much like crying. Sooooooo depressed right now.... ;_; If you don't like TeniPuri, if you don't want to hear about the TeniPuriMyu actors, or if you just don't care about TeniPuri then you don't need to read this entry. Shoo.
Waaaahh.... Yanagi-kyun... ;_;
I dug around for a couple hours through the TeniPuri fandoms on LJ, and after sifting through Hinoai's old entries I finally found out what happened to Yanagi, the original Echizen Ryoma from the first TeniPuri musical.
...oh to hell with it, I was crying just a little while ago.
I read this, this, and this, and I was just...
There are no words to describe that feeling, and I hope I never have to feel it again.
Yanagi is so strong... I can't imagine how difficult it must be, and he's such an adorable tweaker that I can't imagine anyone else who could have NOT deserved something like this as much. He was such an amazing singer and dancer in the myu, and he was doing so well... juggling school and the myu and only being 19... I almost wish I hadn't asked about what happened... it's so sad. Poor Yanagi... but he's still so spunky and optimistic and goofy... Watching his run around in the first musical and mess around with the cast in the backstage clips just makes it harder to not feel affected... I can't believe the sweetie was in an accident that bad! Ah, Yanagi... you have an amazing spirit to presevere and stay on the tenimyu cast.
There is a part in Hinoai's post about the graduation show that says that Yanagi didn't graduate. He didn't graduate? Wha..? So does that mean when he's better he will play Ryoma again? But what about Endo? I can't imagine Yanagi as anyone other than Ryoma, but having two Ryomas would get confusing if they continue that... Ahhh, mou.... I hope he recovers quickly and fully! The day that everyone can see him onstage as Ryoma breakdancing again will be a wonderous day indeed. I hope I can see it come to pass.
He's so... peppy. I love Yanagi's attitude, I really do. Hinoai's translations of his journal entries are so WAFF-y and so... Yanagi. So purely HIM, you know? He's such a dork. I love him so much~ <3
I want to write so much more, but it would probably just be more gushing over the same things, and I need to do my homework, so I'll go now. Maybe I'll write about my trip to LA and National Portfolio Day over the weekend in the next entry.
Oh my god. I feel so much like crying. Sooooooo depressed right now.... ;_; If you don't like TeniPuri, if you don't want to hear about the TeniPuriMyu actors, or if you just don't care about TeniPuri then you don't need to read this entry. Shoo.
Waaaahh.... Yanagi-kyun... ;_;
I dug around for a couple hours through the TeniPuri fandoms on LJ, and after sifting through Hinoai's old entries I finally found out what happened to Yanagi, the original Echizen Ryoma from the first TeniPuri musical.
...oh to hell with it, I was crying just a little while ago.
I read this, this, and this, and I was just...
There are no words to describe that feeling, and I hope I never have to feel it again.
Yanagi is so strong... I can't imagine how difficult it must be, and he's such an adorable tweaker that I can't imagine anyone else who could have NOT deserved something like this as much. He was such an amazing singer and dancer in the myu, and he was doing so well... juggling school and the myu and only being 19... I almost wish I hadn't asked about what happened... it's so sad. Poor Yanagi... but he's still so spunky and optimistic and goofy... Watching his run around in the first musical and mess around with the cast in the backstage clips just makes it harder to not feel affected... I can't believe the sweetie was in an accident that bad! Ah, Yanagi... you have an amazing spirit to presevere and stay on the tenimyu cast.
There is a part in Hinoai's post about the graduation show that says that Yanagi didn't graduate. He didn't graduate? Wha..? So does that mean when he's better he will play Ryoma again? But what about Endo? I can't imagine Yanagi as anyone other than Ryoma, but having two Ryomas would get confusing if they continue that... Ahhh, mou.... I hope he recovers quickly and fully! The day that everyone can see him onstage as Ryoma breakdancing again will be a wonderous day indeed. I hope I can see it come to pass.
He's so... peppy. I love Yanagi's attitude, I really do. Hinoai's translations of his journal entries are so WAFF-y and so... Yanagi. So purely HIM, you know? He's such a dork. I love him so much~ <3
I want to write so much more, but it would probably just be more gushing over the same things, and I need to do my homework, so I'll go now. Maybe I'll write about my trip to LA and National Portfolio Day over the weekend in the next entry.
1.12.2005
Ahhh... so tired. I fell asleep during first period multiple times. I also wish I'd brought my gloves, as my hands are really cold. I didn't fall asleep asleep, you know, just dozed on and off. That irritating, non-satisfying, just-enough-to-keep-one-from-doing-anything-productive kind of sleepiness. Bleh.
1.11.2005
[This is a long rant/ramble about TeniPuriMyu2. If you don't like PoT or don't care, the real news and stuff is in the bottom half, so just scroll a little bit down.]
ARGH! WHAT IS THIS CRAP?!?! ;_;
Kimeru-kun.... WHY DID THEY CHANGE KIMERU TO RYOMA?!?! x.x Sure, it's a bigger vocal role and all... well, sort of... but damnit, it's not him! I can't really believe Kimeru in any other role besides Fuji; he doesn't walk, move, talk, or look like Echizen! He's too tall... his voice is too adult... what happened to the original Echizen? I LOVED who they picked for the first musical, he was amazing! Had the attitude, speech, young voice, shortness, and everything! He was so... Ryoma!
I keep reading on the TeniPuri fans' livejournals that something happened to the first Ryoma, I keep seeing comments like 'It's too bad what happened to him...' and that sort of thing.... I wish I had more (any, really) friends in the TeniPuri fan network, I know it's a huge HUGE HUUUUUUGE fanbase, but I just am not close friends with anyone in it. It makes me sad T_T; I want to know what happened to him! Damn my inability to fluently read/understand Japanese.
The new Fuji is... meh. I first saw pictures of him and thought that he was going to be the new Ryoma. I could have lived with him being Ryoma. Well, he'd have to look a lot less happy, but he's got a voice and face that's too young for Fuji, and he just DOESN'T COMPARE TO KIMERU. ;_; Really, he's an okay singer/dancer, but he doesn't really *fit*, you know? And Kimeru is totally Fuji. The constant little nods, the voice, the smile/smirk, the ACTING! Poor Kimeru, he just cannot act very well as Ryoma. He was okay as Fuji because Fuji is always the one standing, observing, and looking almost as cool as Tezuka-buchou. Oh yeah, Tezuka looks too old without the tracksuit/Regular Jersey. The TezuRyo duets almost made up for the bad Ryoma casting, those two sound divine together. Mmmm.....
And of course, Momo-chan, Inui-sempai, Oishi, Kiku, Kaidoh, and Taka-san are still amazingly funny and wonderfully played. Those six are superb actors and singers.
The Fudomine team was almost dissappointing. What, they couldn't afford to cast the whole team? They were only two people short! THEY MADE THE GOLDEN PAIR PLAY A FREAKING SCREEN! ;_; Kamio looked good, though. Damn good. Really damn good. Although his singing could use a lot of work. Shinji was PERFECT! And that duet between Tezu and Tachibana, that was great.
Actually, the group songs weren't half bad. The coreography for Fudomine and a few of the jazzy songs was pretty good, but for the most part they ran around too much. It's all well and good for there to be more difficult coreography, but this is a musical! They have to have breath left to sing, you know... ._.; The scene at Taka's sushi restaurant was gold, especially the MoMusu reference. TOO FUNNY! Overall, the music was good, maybe better, but the vocals this time bordered on bad. Half the time they were out of breath, out of tune (a few of the cast members just have no range or ear for vocals). Coreography was meh, and I wish there had been more of the group songs since those always sound gorgeous, but it was still highly amusing and very much worth watching. I hope the next one has more GP Love! It was all FuEiji, TezuRyo, and TezuOishi this time.... not that I'm complaining about *that*, mind you.... Hee.
...but damnit, I really liked the first Ryoma! ;_;
Wow, that was so completely jumbled, biased, and fangirlish. Whee.
Anyhow, I just finished my application to Academy of Art in SF tonight, paid the app fee and eevrything, and my transcript shall be mailed to them tomorrow morning by the school, so I think I'm in! I was kinda surprised...but it looks like I just have to pay the registration fees and I'm in. I guess that's a good thing that there's not really a yes/no letter or specific choosing-process... you know what I mean. It's just sign up, pay, and you're in. It's a bit disappointing, though. Kinda like, wow, that was easy, why the fuck have I *tried* so hard in school up till now if all I have to do is pay the fees and turn in the paperwork? Well, all things considered, I guess people could call it my backup at this point, even though I want to go to it (niiiiiice facilities, dorms, and location~).
Going to go to Otis this weekend, missing Friday to drive down to LA and whatnot. This ought to be interesting. I admit, though, I'm more than a little nervous. I know I've always been the one to succeed, or whatever, the one who does well in school and has a decent job and is on top of things and whatever, but when it comes to college stuff I get really nervous. It's like, a whole new world. It is a whole new world, at the sake of sounding cliche. I always start to doubt myself and wonder, do I really have what it takes to get into ____? Can I seriously be thinking that I can survive college the way I am now? Do I really have that kind of willpower to actually get my work done once I start college, and not slack off and waste the thousands of dollars it costs me to go? I mean... honestly, I don't know if I'm really ready for any of this yet. I feel like I might just be going to college because that's what you DO when you get out of HS. You go to college, get a degree, get a job, and then eventually retire. That's how it works, that's how it goes. ...but damn, it sounded a lot better and more convincing three years ago when I still cared about working hard in my classes. I feel like such a slacker. My parents give me this bullshit about it being because of the friends I hang out with (ZOMG, I DON'T RUN WITH THE PERFECT PREPPY GOOD LITTLE CHILDREN NOW!) but really, I think it's more of my realizing that life is rather pointless unless you have fun, and school does not fit into what my definition of 'fun' encompasses nowadays.
In any case, I guess one way to find out if you can swim is to get tossed in the lake, right?
I hope I know what I'm doing.
Off to watch more PoT, I've got ten more episodes to download and then I'll have 1-100! Wheeeeeee~ (note that the ten episodes I have left are 60-70, not 90-100 x_x )
Yay for procrastination and drowning your nervousness and problems with farfetched fantastical tales and anime.
ARGH! WHAT IS THIS CRAP?!?! ;_;
Kimeru-kun.... WHY DID THEY CHANGE KIMERU TO RYOMA?!?! x.x Sure, it's a bigger vocal role and all... well, sort of... but damnit, it's not him! I can't really believe Kimeru in any other role besides Fuji; he doesn't walk, move, talk, or look like Echizen! He's too tall... his voice is too adult... what happened to the original Echizen? I LOVED who they picked for the first musical, he was amazing! Had the attitude, speech, young voice, shortness, and everything! He was so... Ryoma!
I keep reading on the TeniPuri fans' livejournals that something happened to the first Ryoma, I keep seeing comments like 'It's too bad what happened to him...' and that sort of thing.... I wish I had more (any, really) friends in the TeniPuri fan network, I know it's a huge HUGE HUUUUUUGE fanbase, but I just am not close friends with anyone in it. It makes me sad T_T; I want to know what happened to him! Damn my inability to fluently read/understand Japanese.
The new Fuji is... meh. I first saw pictures of him and thought that he was going to be the new Ryoma. I could have lived with him being Ryoma. Well, he'd have to look a lot less happy, but he's got a voice and face that's too young for Fuji, and he just DOESN'T COMPARE TO KIMERU. ;_; Really, he's an okay singer/dancer, but he doesn't really *fit*, you know? And Kimeru is totally Fuji. The constant little nods, the voice, the smile/smirk, the ACTING! Poor Kimeru, he just cannot act very well as Ryoma. He was okay as Fuji because Fuji is always the one standing, observing, and looking almost as cool as Tezuka-buchou. Oh yeah, Tezuka looks too old without the tracksuit/Regular Jersey. The TezuRyo duets almost made up for the bad Ryoma casting, those two sound divine together. Mmmm.....
And of course, Momo-chan, Inui-sempai, Oishi, Kiku, Kaidoh, and Taka-san are still amazingly funny and wonderfully played. Those six are superb actors and singers.
The Fudomine team was almost dissappointing. What, they couldn't afford to cast the whole team? They were only two people short! THEY MADE THE GOLDEN PAIR PLAY A FREAKING SCREEN! ;_; Kamio looked good, though. Damn good. Really damn good. Although his singing could use a lot of work. Shinji was PERFECT! And that duet between Tezu and Tachibana, that was great.
Actually, the group songs weren't half bad. The coreography for Fudomine and a few of the jazzy songs was pretty good, but for the most part they ran around too much. It's all well and good for there to be more difficult coreography, but this is a musical! They have to have breath left to sing, you know... ._.; The scene at Taka's sushi restaurant was gold, especially the MoMusu reference. TOO FUNNY! Overall, the music was good, maybe better, but the vocals this time bordered on bad. Half the time they were out of breath, out of tune (a few of the cast members just have no range or ear for vocals). Coreography was meh, and I wish there had been more of the group songs since those always sound gorgeous, but it was still highly amusing and very much worth watching. I hope the next one has more GP Love! It was all FuEiji, TezuRyo, and TezuOishi this time.... not that I'm complaining about *that*, mind you.... Hee.
...but damnit, I really liked the first Ryoma! ;_;
Wow, that was so completely jumbled, biased, and fangirlish. Whee.
Anyhow, I just finished my application to Academy of Art in SF tonight, paid the app fee and eevrything, and my transcript shall be mailed to them tomorrow morning by the school, so I think I'm in! I was kinda surprised...but it looks like I just have to pay the registration fees and I'm in. I guess that's a good thing that there's not really a yes/no letter or specific choosing-process... you know what I mean. It's just sign up, pay, and you're in. It's a bit disappointing, though. Kinda like, wow, that was easy, why the fuck have I *tried* so hard in school up till now if all I have to do is pay the fees and turn in the paperwork? Well, all things considered, I guess people could call it my backup at this point, even though I want to go to it (niiiiiice facilities, dorms, and location~).
Going to go to Otis this weekend, missing Friday to drive down to LA and whatnot. This ought to be interesting. I admit, though, I'm more than a little nervous. I know I've always been the one to succeed, or whatever, the one who does well in school and has a decent job and is on top of things and whatever, but when it comes to college stuff I get really nervous. It's like, a whole new world. It is a whole new world, at the sake of sounding cliche. I always start to doubt myself and wonder, do I really have what it takes to get into ____? Can I seriously be thinking that I can survive college the way I am now? Do I really have that kind of willpower to actually get my work done once I start college, and not slack off and waste the thousands of dollars it costs me to go? I mean... honestly, I don't know if I'm really ready for any of this yet. I feel like I might just be going to college because that's what you DO when you get out of HS. You go to college, get a degree, get a job, and then eventually retire. That's how it works, that's how it goes. ...but damn, it sounded a lot better and more convincing three years ago when I still cared about working hard in my classes. I feel like such a slacker. My parents give me this bullshit about it being because of the friends I hang out with (ZOMG, I DON'T RUN WITH THE PERFECT PREPPY GOOD LITTLE CHILDREN NOW!) but really, I think it's more of my realizing that life is rather pointless unless you have fun, and school does not fit into what my definition of 'fun' encompasses nowadays.
In any case, I guess one way to find out if you can swim is to get tossed in the lake, right?
I hope I know what I'm doing.
Off to watch more PoT, I've got ten more episodes to download and then I'll have 1-100! Wheeeeeee~ (note that the ten episodes I have left are 60-70, not 90-100 x_x )
Yay for procrastination and drowning your nervousness and problems with farfetched fantastical tales and anime.
1.05.2005
OH MY GOD.
I love Kimeru. I really do.
I'm sitting there watching the TeniPuriMyu, the first one, (It finished downloading finally!!! Squee~~~) and for a musical they did pretty well by way of casting. Tezuka-buchou was really sexy. <3 And oh my god, Ryoma, the scenes in the changing room where he takes his shirt off!!! :: melts into puddle of fangirlish goo :: So cute... :: fans self :: Inui was too short, but that part where he laughs... so funny!! He played Inui really well, and Taka was awesome too! I have new respect for Taka, after seeing him played in the musical.... you just can't NOT love him! "Moeru BAAAH-NINNNGGGG!!!!!" XD "Are you my challenger?" XDXDXD He was probably one of the best looking cast members. Nanjiroh and the cameo of Karupin was so cute, and I loved how Momo-chan was so full of himself X3 The dancing during the matches was a little odd at first, but it fit well, and my only real complaint is that there wasn't enough GP love or Eiji-isms, I mean, "Hoi hoi!" just doesn't compare to "Nyani~?" you know? Plus, Oishi looked about ready to jump poor Tezu, and that part at the end when he touched his stomach, kyaaaa~ X3~~~
And Fuji.... oh, let me tell you a little something about dear dear Fuji-sempai...
I love Fuji's character, I really do. Always smiling, immune to Inui's special drinks, prodigy, loving and protective brother complex, gets along smashingly with the cool older sister, and SCARY AS FUCK. Teehee. No really, Fuji scares me with that smile of his a lot of the time. But I still love him <3 heehee. Anyways, I'm lookin at the guy who's playing Fuji, and I'm thinking... meh, poor Fuji... they could have gotten someone at least a little handsomer..... but I have to admit, he grew on me throughout that hour and a half and I found he fit the character pretty well overall. Anyways, I'm sitting there bemoaning about my poor Fuji Syusuke who just isn't done justice, when I notice that he's got a lot of singing parts. More than Momo even! I admit to myself, his voice is really nice. It definately makes up for whatever the guy lacks in looks, that lovely voice. <3 So at the end... there's my lovable little Fuji standing out on stage with that smile, that enigmatic SMILE, and he--get this--STARTS SINGING 'YOU GOT GAME'. OMFG. OMFGOMFGOMFG, NOFUCKINGWAY!!! It can't be him! :O ?!?!?! IT IS!!!!!! HOLY SHIT, FUJI IS KIMERU!!!! :: dies of happiness ::
...uhh... yeah, I was on fangirl mode for hours and hours after that. Went to bed around 3:45, woke up just past 7:30 with barely enough time to get to school on time. Still delusionally happy fangirl with mental images of a shirtless Ryoma, a singing Fuji, TezuOishi, and that killer EIJI move that Eiji made at the end of the show, the flip thing. SO EIJI. But uh, yeah...
Horio was waaayyyy way amusing too, as well as his two cohorts. And the part where vidcam boy rubs adoringly against Fuji's back as he's singing??! SO CUTE!! :: melts again ::
God, I need mental help.
...but it was so CUUTTTEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
I sat there and just 'KYAAAAAAN~~ KAWAII SU YO~~' and 'SQUEEEEEEEE! FUJI-SEMPAI!!! RYOMA-KYUUN~ BUCHOU!!!!!!!!'-ed for about half an hour in front of my computer monitor, and then went downstairs and did it some more while doing my laundry. KYAAAAAAAAA~!!! FUJI-SEMPAIIIII~!!!!!!!!!!
...okay, I'm done.
Now I'm going to go home and watch it again. And again. And again.
...and again.
:heart:
I love Kimeru. I really do.
I'm sitting there watching the TeniPuriMyu, the first one, (It finished downloading finally!!! Squee~~~) and for a musical they did pretty well by way of casting. Tezuka-buchou was really sexy. <3 And oh my god, Ryoma, the scenes in the changing room where he takes his shirt off!!! :: melts into puddle of fangirlish goo :: So cute... :: fans self :: Inui was too short, but that part where he laughs... so funny!! He played Inui really well, and Taka was awesome too! I have new respect for Taka, after seeing him played in the musical.... you just can't NOT love him! "Moeru BAAAH-NINNNGGGG!!!!!" XD "Are you my challenger?" XDXDXD He was probably one of the best looking cast members. Nanjiroh and the cameo of Karupin was so cute, and I loved how Momo-chan was so full of himself X3 The dancing during the matches was a little odd at first, but it fit well, and my only real complaint is that there wasn't enough GP love or Eiji-isms, I mean, "Hoi hoi!" just doesn't compare to "Nyani~?" you know? Plus, Oishi looked about ready to jump poor Tezu, and that part at the end when he touched his stomach, kyaaaa~ X3~~~
And Fuji.... oh, let me tell you a little something about dear dear Fuji-sempai...
I love Fuji's character, I really do. Always smiling, immune to Inui's special drinks, prodigy, loving and protective brother complex, gets along smashingly with the cool older sister, and SCARY AS FUCK. Teehee. No really, Fuji scares me with that smile of his a lot of the time. But I still love him <3 heehee. Anyways, I'm lookin at the guy who's playing Fuji, and I'm thinking... meh, poor Fuji... they could have gotten someone at least a little handsomer..... but I have to admit, he grew on me throughout that hour and a half and I found he fit the character pretty well overall. Anyways, I'm sitting there bemoaning about my poor Fuji Syusuke who just isn't done justice, when I notice that he's got a lot of singing parts. More than Momo even! I admit to myself, his voice is really nice. It definately makes up for whatever the guy lacks in looks, that lovely voice. <3 So at the end... there's my lovable little Fuji standing out on stage with that smile, that enigmatic SMILE, and he--get this--STARTS SINGING 'YOU GOT GAME'. OMFG. OMFGOMFGOMFG, NOFUCKINGWAY!!! It can't be him! :O ?!?!?! IT IS!!!!!! HOLY SHIT, FUJI IS KIMERU!!!! :: dies of happiness ::
...uhh... yeah, I was on fangirl mode for hours and hours after that. Went to bed around 3:45, woke up just past 7:30 with barely enough time to get to school on time. Still delusionally happy fangirl with mental images of a shirtless Ryoma, a singing Fuji, TezuOishi, and that killer EIJI move that Eiji made at the end of the show, the flip thing. SO EIJI. But uh, yeah...
Horio was waaayyyy way amusing too, as well as his two cohorts. And the part where vidcam boy rubs adoringly against Fuji's back as he's singing??! SO CUTE!! :: melts again ::
God, I need mental help.
...but it was so CUUTTTEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
I sat there and just 'KYAAAAAAN~~ KAWAII SU YO~~' and 'SQUEEEEEEEE! FUJI-SEMPAI!!! RYOMA-KYUUN~ BUCHOU!!!!!!!!'-ed for about half an hour in front of my computer monitor, and then went downstairs and did it some more while doing my laundry. KYAAAAAAAAA~!!! FUJI-SEMPAIIIII~!!!!!!!!!!
...okay, I'm done.
Now I'm going to go home and watch it again. And again. And again.
...and again.
:heart:
1.04.2005
Sunday, January 2, 2005
11:00 PM
I dreamed of him. I told myself I would forget him, told myself over and over again, but I dreamed of him last night. It felt so good, so warm, so goddamned perfect when I held his hand, leaned against him, hid behind him, felt his arms wrap around me protectively... Gods, I wish I could have stayed in that dream forever. That feeling of support, of comfort, of SAFETY that he radiated... I need that right now. I need it, I need it to be surrounding me in reality, not just in my delusions, and after that dream my mind craves nothing else so strongly. I woke twice, but both times I fought to regain and continue that dream, and both times I dozed back and melted back into his arms, and when I finally got out of bed, I had never felt so alone in my life. Walking through the house, sitting on the couch, sitting in the kitchen by myself, staring at the phone cradled in its charger and my cell phone, both of which contained no one I could call for that comfort in voice, in mind, it struck me how very alone I really was. When you have over fifty numbers in your phone book, but not a single person who can make you feel safe among them, or rather, a single one you can't get up the nerve to call, and who probably doesn't want to hear from you anyways, perhaps its time for a little lesson in personal sanity maintenance.
I can't deal with this anymore. I can't do this, I can't DO this anymore, do THIS. It hurts, I can't take it! I... everything I do turns out wrong. I've lost my balance, I can't regain that adeptness that I had, the ability to cope. I keep fucking up. I keep fucking CRYING. It's not like me. It's not ME anymore. What have I become?
My skin is a pale, pasty, unnaturally off-white color, and my eyes are constantly red-rimmed, tinged with the black and blue of lines worn by stress and bags worn by bouts of insomnia and bouts of too much sleep. I hurt, everywhere.
My parents are pissed off with me, my sister is pissed off with me, my cousin is sick of me, my aunts and uncles don't know what to do with me, my friends can't do anything for me, and every time I try to do something for myself it just fucks things up even more.
I need an Oishi that will let me be an Eiji. Someone who will make sure the rope never tangles, and will always be there to cover me and take care of me when I need to recharge, no matter what the situation. Someone who knows me better than I know myself, and who knows just what spots to hit that make me relax and play at my best. Someone who loves me, and that I can love freely.
I need that.
I'm crumbling, I can feel it, and if I fall this time, I don't think even all the King's men could piece me back together, not this time.
Real life never gives you a prince in shining armor. It certainly doesn't give you a princess in one either, or the acceptance for that situation, it just gives you an expiration date stamped where everyone can see it except you.
Monday, January 3, 2005
3:30 AM
I just finished watching The Order. Heath Ledger... was he the one that played Wesley in the Princess Bride? Looks and sounds like him. Anyhow, it was quite the dramatic faith-breaker. Like a movie version of The DaVinci Code, or Angels and Demons, whichever one it was with the Illuminati, and where the cardinal or the pope was the villain. I loved it. I feel more stable now, and incredibly intrigued by the wonder that religion and cult-themed tales invokes in my mind. Faith, after all, is the most fickle lover of them all.
Monday, January 3, 2005
8:00 PM
I'm so tired... the back of my head, through to my temples, it throbs painfully. This headache has been nagging and tugging at the back of my mind since I dragged myself out of bed at 11:30.
Monday, January 3, 2005
11:51 PM
Heh. Fell asleep for a couple hours. Woke up at 10:30, found that the box of Tylenol expired five years ago, and asked Julia for some drugs for the pain. It fuckin' hurt like hell by then, that throbbing in my skull. I took two Advil, and lo and behold, it took its damn time but it worked. It took like, half an hour. Ugh. But now my headache is gone, so I am grateful.
Tuesday, January 4, 2005
12:03 AM
New Year's Eve was wonderful. I've never felt more content than when I was sitting in that bean bag, warm under the sleeping bag, watching Shawn being... well, Shawn, in the corner of the room and sleeping, and Brian and Jordan fumbling with their computers, and Trent on his bed flipping through the channels to try to get something more interesting than South Park to watch. Or before that, with us trying to figure out answers to the Lord of the Rings Trivial Pursuit cards. It didn't matter that I was a girl, or that they were all guys, because we were comfortable with each other and it just didn't matter. There was trust, there was understanding, and there was laughter. It was a wonderful ending to a wonderful night.
I just wish that the morning had been better for Amanda, Amanda's Mom, Trent, and Trent's mom. I didn't want to get them involved... I'm so sorry, guys.
...on a different topic, and a more selfish one... I hope my TeniPuriMyus are done downloading!!! X3 I really, really, really want to watch them... Mweeheeheeheeee, TeniPuri RABURABU ~(*3*)~ chi-yuuuuuuu!
11:00 PM
I dreamed of him. I told myself I would forget him, told myself over and over again, but I dreamed of him last night. It felt so good, so warm, so goddamned perfect when I held his hand, leaned against him, hid behind him, felt his arms wrap around me protectively... Gods, I wish I could have stayed in that dream forever. That feeling of support, of comfort, of SAFETY that he radiated... I need that right now. I need it, I need it to be surrounding me in reality, not just in my delusions, and after that dream my mind craves nothing else so strongly. I woke twice, but both times I fought to regain and continue that dream, and both times I dozed back and melted back into his arms, and when I finally got out of bed, I had never felt so alone in my life. Walking through the house, sitting on the couch, sitting in the kitchen by myself, staring at the phone cradled in its charger and my cell phone, both of which contained no one I could call for that comfort in voice, in mind, it struck me how very alone I really was. When you have over fifty numbers in your phone book, but not a single person who can make you feel safe among them, or rather, a single one you can't get up the nerve to call, and who probably doesn't want to hear from you anyways, perhaps its time for a little lesson in personal sanity maintenance.
I can't deal with this anymore. I can't do this, I can't DO this anymore, do THIS. It hurts, I can't take it! I... everything I do turns out wrong. I've lost my balance, I can't regain that adeptness that I had, the ability to cope. I keep fucking up. I keep fucking CRYING. It's not like me. It's not ME anymore. What have I become?
My skin is a pale, pasty, unnaturally off-white color, and my eyes are constantly red-rimmed, tinged with the black and blue of lines worn by stress and bags worn by bouts of insomnia and bouts of too much sleep. I hurt, everywhere.
My parents are pissed off with me, my sister is pissed off with me, my cousin is sick of me, my aunts and uncles don't know what to do with me, my friends can't do anything for me, and every time I try to do something for myself it just fucks things up even more.
I need an Oishi that will let me be an Eiji. Someone who will make sure the rope never tangles, and will always be there to cover me and take care of me when I need to recharge, no matter what the situation. Someone who knows me better than I know myself, and who knows just what spots to hit that make me relax and play at my best. Someone who loves me, and that I can love freely.
I need that.
I'm crumbling, I can feel it, and if I fall this time, I don't think even all the King's men could piece me back together, not this time.
Real life never gives you a prince in shining armor. It certainly doesn't give you a princess in one either, or the acceptance for that situation, it just gives you an expiration date stamped where everyone can see it except you.
Monday, January 3, 2005
3:30 AM
I just finished watching The Order. Heath Ledger... was he the one that played Wesley in the Princess Bride? Looks and sounds like him. Anyhow, it was quite the dramatic faith-breaker. Like a movie version of The DaVinci Code, or Angels and Demons, whichever one it was with the Illuminati, and where the cardinal or the pope was the villain. I loved it. I feel more stable now, and incredibly intrigued by the wonder that religion and cult-themed tales invokes in my mind. Faith, after all, is the most fickle lover of them all.
Monday, January 3, 2005
8:00 PM
I'm so tired... the back of my head, through to my temples, it throbs painfully. This headache has been nagging and tugging at the back of my mind since I dragged myself out of bed at 11:30.
Monday, January 3, 2005
11:51 PM
Heh. Fell asleep for a couple hours. Woke up at 10:30, found that the box of Tylenol expired five years ago, and asked Julia for some drugs for the pain. It fuckin' hurt like hell by then, that throbbing in my skull. I took two Advil, and lo and behold, it took its damn time but it worked. It took like, half an hour. Ugh. But now my headache is gone, so I am grateful.
Tuesday, January 4, 2005
12:03 AM
New Year's Eve was wonderful. I've never felt more content than when I was sitting in that bean bag, warm under the sleeping bag, watching Shawn being... well, Shawn, in the corner of the room and sleeping, and Brian and Jordan fumbling with their computers, and Trent on his bed flipping through the channels to try to get something more interesting than South Park to watch. Or before that, with us trying to figure out answers to the Lord of the Rings Trivial Pursuit cards. It didn't matter that I was a girl, or that they were all guys, because we were comfortable with each other and it just didn't matter. There was trust, there was understanding, and there was laughter. It was a wonderful ending to a wonderful night.
I just wish that the morning had been better for Amanda, Amanda's Mom, Trent, and Trent's mom. I didn't want to get them involved... I'm so sorry, guys.
...on a different topic, and a more selfish one... I hope my TeniPuriMyus are done downloading!!! X3 I really, really, really want to watch them... Mweeheeheeheeee, TeniPuri RABURABU ~(*3*)~ chi-yuuuuuuu!
